The past couple of weeks have been a little nutty. Lots of changes that I hadn’t planned…expected…or even foreseen as potential scenarios when I started this journey 120 days ago.
With so much going on, it’s no wonder that I started to question whether I was on the right path or had lost my way. I mean, everything felt right but eating an entire tub of ice cream can feel good at the time…but that doesn’t mean it’s good for you…or the right thing to do.
Here I was, filling up on dreamy goodness questioning whether this was the right treat for me to be munching on. So I did what most people do when questioning the whether they are on the right path, I headed to see Margot for a psychic reading.
I’m not even exaggerating when I say that the first thing she said to me was that I was on the right path. She told me that I knew this was the case but for some reason I was doubting myself. Duh… She went on to say that people are going to question me…tell me I’m not doing what I should be…plant seeds of doubt. But that I need to trust my intuition because it’s spot on…and I know it. So relax.
She was right. Deep down I felt it but the affirmation that I was on the right path brought me a level of comfort I needed at that very moment. I had managed to get myself all worked up over nothing. Well, not nothing…but being on the right path doesn’t mean that everything is going to go swimmingly…or even according to plan.
I mean, that’s the point right…we don’t necessarily know all the steps along the path. We may have an idea of what the destination will look like…what it will feel like. But the steps we take to arrive at the destination may not be anything like we anticipated. Our job is to stay open. To trust…even when we doubt ourselves. And to seek affirmation when necessary so we don’t stray off course.
At day 120 of quitting my job, I’m loving being retired…enjoying the summer…have a live in boyfriend and a new puppy…dropped out of my coaching program…am starting a new part-time job…and am opening a business. I wholeheartedly expected to find myself here — or someplace similar — but not until much closer to day 365. I’m glad things are moving along…I just wonder where this journey is going to take me.
Correction, I see where I’m headed…but I have no intention of spoiling the outcome. Guess you’ll just have to stick around for the ride….and help affirm I’m on the right path.