nesha officially opened for business on Monday and today (Tuesday) both Laura and I saw our first clients. Our business is such that we literally share an office so we’re only there when we have appointments and neither of us see clients at the same time…at least until we start Skyping (coming soon).
As luck would have it, about an hour before my appointment I started to feel flush…got the chills…felt achey. At first I assumed I was picking up someone else’s energy but when I dismissed that I was left with the realization that I was going to have to push past my aches to be there for someone else.
I haven’t had to dig deep like that in a while…at least not from a work perspective. As a retiree, I pretty much have the ability to do what I want when I want and if I need to reschedule something, I do. I don’t have the weight of feeling that others are counting on me to do a job anymore…until today.
Maybe that was the fever I was feeling. Some left over sensation of obligation…responsibility…and how that used to feel for me. Doing something that I don’t want to do has always left me with a physical sensation…even resulting in full on body aches…so here I was again.
When I walked out of the session, though, I still felt feverish but I didn’t feel heavy. I didn’t have that gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach. Despite the flu aches, I felt accomplished. I had taken a huge step in fulfilling a dream of being a life coach…I’d had my first client. I had survived…the client survived…it felt good.
And if I’m honest, it was awesome to have on regular clothes again. I mean, I don’t always wear yoga clothes…but unless I’m dressing up to go out for something, I do…and that meant this was something!
About halfway through the session, I was struck by the fact that this is my new job…and I was doing it. Someone was trusting me…allowing me to listen and offer guidance. Someone was sharing a part of themselves with the purpose of growing. I had to quickly check out of my thoughts to stay present but in that brief moment, I was nearly overwhelmed.
Following a dream feels amazing….finding your path feels surreal, yet natural…even when you’re sick.