For the first time in quite a while, I had troubles sleeping last night because I couldn’t quiet my mind. Around 2am, all the things I needed to do started parading through my head like a never ending series of floats.
I needed to send some emails…I needed to schedule some meetings…I needed to start module 2 of my lectures…I needed to read some books…I needed to mentality prepare for the possibility of two build outs…I needed to figure out the SUP schedule…I needed…I needed…I needed….
It took almost two hours to settle down all the thoughts. What I noticed during those two hours, though, was that nothing was an emergency or urgent in nature. Nothing had to be done. Nothing was going to make or break a deal. And the biggest revelation…and relief…no one was applying the pressure to me, except for me.
Everything I felt I needed to do was because I wanted to do it, not because someone else had imposed a deadine upon me. It was that realization that finally quieted the voices and let me fall to sleep.
Trust that I knew what I need to accomplish to be successful. Trust that I’ll get to the things that are important when I need to…and everything else in due time.
I know I’ve entered a new phase of my life where I’m self funding my business interests…and considering the potential of a second substantial investment. It’s the money that makes it all so real and a little scary. But at the same time, I’ve never felt so comfortable in the decisions I’m making.
They are the right decisions for the right reasons. I’m spending money to make money and I’ll be successful because I’m doing what I want to be doing. I can feel it in my bones. I can feel it in my soul. Everything I’ve done to this point was to prepare me for being where I am now…right here…right now.
It’s different when you’re trying to succeed with your own money. Good news, I’ve always been a conscientious spender…no matter who’s money it is. And even better, I know I’m on the right path. That’s something I’ve never really known before.
That feeling of comfort…that feeling of knowing…that feeling of trust…brings a new sensation to a sleepless night.