Day 359: Manifesting your life’s dreams

IMG_6439I was talking to Princess Grace today and told her that it feels like we’ve been sitting on a high speed train that’s been parked at the station for months, and all the sudden it’s taken off.  All the things we’ve been dreaming about and talking about and trying to manifest are happening!  And the energy around them feels fast…and sure.  There’s not a single question in mind that what we want to happen is going to happen.  It’s called manifesting your life’s dreams.

I realized last night that Mr. Universe has the same power to manifest.  Pretty much everything I’ve seen him set his mind to achieve…or that I’ve heard him say he wants…has happened.

He was looking for someone to be in a committed relationship with.  Boom!
He was searching for a partner to compliment his life and push him to evolve.  Boom!
He wanted a dog (or two).  Boom!  Boom!
He wasn’t happy in his career and wanted a change.  Boom!
Months ago he told me that working at Harley would be his dream job.  Somehow it happened for him.  Boom!
He wanted a motorcycle…something that employees usually have to wait a year for…and he got it in two weeks.  Ka-Boom!

I could keep going with example after example of how I’ve watched him manifest his dreams, but I think you get the point.  When he…we…exist in our higher self…the place where we are focused on the higher good…of bettering ourselves…of striving to be the best version of ourselves…things like this can happen because the Universe supports us and rewards us.

I’m starting to think of the Universe as a parent who wants the absolute best for us.  But unlike most of our real-life parents, she has the unlimited ability to provide whatever our heart’s desire.  She doesn’t punish when we fall into our low self or act out.  She watches…supports us…provides us with lessons to get us back on track.  She doesn’t give hand outs.  She doesn’t reward bad behavior.  But she loves us no matter what.

To this notion, Mr. Universe and I could both offer up examples of times we existed in our lower self.  Times when life got really hard.  When it didn’t feel like we could catch a break.  Times when the life we so badly wanted seemed far from our grasp.  But looking back, those low points provided the best lessons to eventually get us back on track.  To push us to take drastic steps forward.  To encourage us to try new things because it was so clear the old ways weren’t working.  That’s how the Universe supported us even when it seemed like there was nothing…no one there lending a hand.

I label this power “the Universe”.  Mr. Universe calls it God.  I don’t care what name we give to it, I just care that we can agree on its purpose.  And that purpose is to help us see and become the best versions of ourselves.  To leave behind that which distracts us…pulls us down…diminishes our light.  To support us as we step onto our path…to experience our journey…to manifest our dreams.

It all starts so simply.  With a belief that you’re worthy of happiness…worthy of love…and that there’s something more waiting for you.  And then realizing that that something is you.

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Day 358: So much goodness

IMG_6196Today has been a busy day of accomplishments. It started at 5:30am – like any other typical Wednesday – so I could head out and get to Greenfield in time to teach my 7am yoga class. Yes, it’s a haul…especially at that hour…but the people that show up to class are so awesome.  Each Tuesday night I tell myself I need to give it up but each Wednesday after I finish class, I’m so glad I taught it.

And that’s about where my typical Wednesday activities stop.

When I got home I was greeted with a call from the General Contractor we’re in negotiations with for the north side expansion project.  They wanted to clarify a few things and send over the contract for signature.  I printed it….signed it…and sent it off.  Shit just got really real.  We are now contracted to officially start the buildout!!  All the permits are approved…so there’s nothing standing in our way…!  Breathe….

From that excitement, I popped up the street to a local coffee shop to meet up with my nesha partners.  It’s the first time the three of us have been together in months…maybe since Staraya headed off to start her advanced program in October.  It was so good to be together…catching up…and dreaming about the future.  We were able to fill Star in on all our crazy ideas…including our dreams of a new space and community outreach…and she loved them.  Further confirmation that our partnership is a good one.  With all three of us working to manifest these new intentions, it shouldn’t be long….

After that I headed up north to meet with a woman that teaches the Alexander Technique.  The simplest way to explain it is, every piece of equipment you own comes with a manual…except your body.  She helps you to get more in tune with how it is built to work most efficiently.  This means learning to sit, stand, walk, lift, do yoga…pretty much anything and everything…properly for your body.  We were so excited listening to her pitch and I can’t wait to see how we can involve her going forward.  Heck, I can’t wait to take a class with her myself!!

Next up, I headed to buy sheets/blanket for my Reiki table.  Laura and I are going to staff a nesha booth at 317 Bride’s Bridal Expo this weekend.  We’re promoting our Yin privates and workshops, Reiki, and Cards of Destiny readings to brides and offering them free Reiki sessions on the spot.  I can’t wait!  I was so excited, in fact, I popped over to the Athenaeum (where the event will be held) to take a look at our space.  Super excited!

In between errands, I managed to scan Facebook to see that the Kids Yoga event Erin and I wanted to do next weekend is officially on the schedule!  Woo hoo…finally.  I’m not sure who is going to be more giddy in class…me or the kids!  And this is just the beginning.  We’re hoping to make the “playshop” a monthly occurrence at the Invoke Wellness Center and plan to take at least the first playshop to Coburn Place for those kiddos too.

Once I got back home, I settled in to catch up on some emails and was greeted with information on a yoga training specifically focused on learning how to work with cancer patients.  Had I gotten this information a year ago, I might have overlooked it or thought it wouldn’t be a good fit for me.  But now…after my mom and the Redheaded Gypsy…I’m considering doing the training.  I know it would be yet another thing to throw on my plate but it’s a way to make sense of what happened to them.  A way to help them and others.  A way to spread some joy and bring some ease to an otherwise devastating period in someone’s life.  I haven’t decided what I’m going to do yet.  For now, I’m just going to sit with it.

The last bit of news today was that we might have our current nesha office space rented.  This would be huge and would free us to fully manifest nesha 2.0…in a new space…with a new focus…filled with new energy.

So much freaking goodness today!!

Oh, and did I mention there was a pop up boutique parked right in front of my house?!?  Seriously…bought some cute shit.  Keep it coming Universe…and thank you.  🙂

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Day 357: A balancing act

quipple302Lately I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed with all the “business-y” stuff I have going on.  I’m noticing the subtle difference between being busy at work and being self-employed busy.  To someone standing outside looking in, there probably doesn’t seem to be much of a difference, but to me…someone standing in the middle of it…it feels very different.

When I used to go to work, I actually went to work.  Even though I had the option to work from home, I liked the act of leaving the house.  Of physically moving into a different space…of having that physical separation between work and home, regardless of what was happening in my head.  I didn’t like everything co-mingling together.

When I first retired, none of this was an issue because I wasn’t working.  I was writing…doing yoga…running…spending my days doing personal stuff.  There was no work/life balance because everything was just “life”.  But now….now things have changed.

Now I’m teaching.  I’m enrolled in an 8-month long eating psych program.  I’m getting ready to kick off a build out for the northside studio expansion.  I’m re-envisioning and considering a build out for nesha, too.  I’m taking weekly classes to become a better yoga teacher.  I’m reading books to be a better coach.  And I’m trying to balance all of it with being a wife and still feeling retired.

As much as I’m striving to find my new work/life balance, I’m finding it difficult because I’m never actually “going” to work.  Even when I drive to the studio for build out meetings, I’m driving to the place I teach yoga…the place I take yoga.  The demarcations are hard to see and even harder to feel.

When someone asks for a meeting with me, we’re usually meeting at my favorite coffeehouse…or in my house…so it feels cozy, not like work.  Maybe that’s what it’s supposed to feel like.  One connection ebbing and flowing into another.  Surrounding myself with people that I want to work with and learn from and be friends with.

Maybe this is how the dance of life is supposed to feel….no real beginning or end…just a constant tango.  No clear lines of distinction because it’s all inter-related.

What I do know is that slowing down is going to become super important for me.  Making time to take time.  Time to reconnect with myself and with nature.  Time to sit and be still.  Learning to turn off the external distractions and tune into the inner workings will become crucial to feel balanced.  A balance that isn’t about work vs life anymore.  A balance that is about giving and receiving.  About tending to and nurturing others as much as I’m tending to and being nurtured myself.  Balancing teaching and learning…working and playing…talking and listening…thinking and feeling…masculine and feminine.

As I do a better job balancing my intentions and attentions with my actions, I think I’ll start to settle into a rhythm that better supports me…which in turn will allow me to better support those around me.  Again…everything…always a balancing act.

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Day 356: Feels like home

every-new-day-is-another-chance-to-change-your-lifeMy path led me to jump ship…to do something extreme.  It was the only option that made sense to me at the time.  I had run myself into the ground…and had nothing left to give to a new job.  I barely had anything left to give myself.  Leaving the rat race and diving head first into the human race was what I had to do to survive.

Not everyone needs such an extreme change to find happiness, though.  For some people a job change is exactly what’s needed…and maybe even a change after that until you find a place that feels like home.  That was the path that Mr. Universe took.

When I met him he was a manager at a car dealership.  He’d been in management for almost 25 years at a variety of stores, and he was burned out.  He and his boss had very different philosophies and didn’t see eye-to-eye.  That coupled with the usual office politics made for chaotic and hectic days.

As our relationship progressed and he started coming to my house directly after work, I could see the toll his job was taking.  The Mr. Universe that would walk in the door after work was a lot different than the Mr. Universe I’d see on his days off.  I know that this is true, to some extent, for everyone in every job.  But he was nearly a different person.

Finally he started sharing his frustrations.  It was pretty clear he was nearing the end of his rope with his boss.  Still being relatively new to Indy, it wasn’t as easy to job hop as it had been previously.  This market takes a different type of finesse.  When he couldn’t take it anymore, I told him he should quit.  His happiness was far more important than a job title.  I didn’t care what he did for a living as long as he could pay his bills.

Within weeks…maybe even days…he quit.  For the first time in his life, he didn’t feel like he had to be a manager.  Like part of why I liked him had to do with his job or money.  I’d given him the freedom to ask himself what he wanted to do with his career…with his life.  And for that, we both know how lucky we were.

Feeling that he needed a break from management, he took a job as a salesman.  Back to basics with the intention to leave work at work.  This was the right move for a short time.  As much as he loved the group he worked for…and as much as he thought his burnout was solely attributable to his old boss…he started to realize he needed a bigger change.

And then came the potential to work doing something he’d always dreamt of doing…working at a Harley Davidson dealership.  To me this didn’t seem like that drastic of a change.  I mean you’re still in the personal transportation busy, right?  Yes and no.  A car is often a necessity for people, but a Harley is a luxury buy.  Those are two very different mindsets.

He’s found his way back to management.  Selling a product he loves and believes in.  Surrounded by people that feel the same way.  The atmosphere is relaxed yet driven.  He gets to wear jeans and boots to work…and listens to hard rock all day (ewe).  But it’s an environment that makes him happy and that’s what matters.

Just two weeks into the job, he’s able to see how clearly his work affected his life.  How not being happy at work meant not being happy at home.  It’s too hard to separate the two.  He’s almost like a different person…actually, probably more like the happy-go-lucky, carefree guy I met on our first date.

So to those folks that read my blog and think, “I’ll never be happy because I can’t retire yet.”  Nonsense.  Maybe your move doesn’t have to be that drastic.  Maybe it really is just about finding a place to work that feels like home.

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Day 355: A sleepless night

IMG_6189For the first time in quite a while, I had troubles sleeping last night because I couldn’t quiet my mind.  Around 2am, all the things I needed to do started parading through my head like a never ending series of floats.

I needed to send some emails…I needed to schedule some meetings…I needed to start module 2 of my lectures…I needed to read some books…I needed to mentality prepare for the possibility of two build outs…I needed to figure out the SUP schedule…I needed…I needed…I needed….

It took almost two hours to settle down all the thoughts.  What I noticed during those two hours, though, was that nothing was an emergency or urgent in nature.  Nothing had to be done.  Nothing was going to make or break a deal.  And the biggest revelation…and relief…no one was applying the pressure to me, except for me.

Everything I felt I needed to do was because I wanted to do it, not because someone else had imposed a deadine upon me.  It was that realization that finally quieted the voices and let me fall to sleep.

Trust that I knew what I need to accomplish to be successful.  Trust that I’ll get to the things that are important when I need to…and everything else in due time.

I know I’ve entered a new phase of my life where I’m self funding my business interests…and considering the potential of a second substantial investment.  It’s the money that makes it all so real and a little scary.  But at the same time, I’ve never felt so comfortable in the decisions I’m making.

They are the right decisions for the right reasons.  I’m spending money to make money and I’ll be successful because I’m doing what I want to be doing.  I can feel it in my bones.  I can feel it in my soul.  Everything I’ve done to this point was to prepare me for being where I am now…right here…right now.

It’s different when you’re trying to succeed with your own money.  Good news, I’ve always been a conscientious spender…no matter who’s money it is.  And even better, I know I’m on the right path.  That’s something I’ve never really known before.

That feeling of comfort…that feeling of knowing…that feeling of trust…brings a new sensation to a sleepless night.

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Day 354: Wasting a day away

indexJust the other day, I was pondering how it’s still possible to waste an entire day sitting in front of my computer.  It was a rainy day with a chill in the air.  What else is there to do but sit in front of a computer and do my business on a yucky day?!?

Sure, I probably could have read a book…of which I have several that I want and need to read.  Or I could have gone to a movie.  Or maybe visited with friends or family.  But no, I sat glued to my Mac…out of habit. ..or so I thought.

Today, Spring is in the air.  It was sunny and inviting.  Once I got out of my class, I ran some errands, washed the car, and then headed over to chat with Princess Grace.  Eventually we decided it was time to experience nature.

We headed over to my house and grabbed the dogs.  One in each hand, we made our way down to the nearest coffee shop and enjoyed some people watching…from the comfort of an outdoor table.  Even the dogs were happy to just hang in the sunshine.

The whole day had an energy about it that kept me on the move.  Things to do, people to see, places to go.  I needed to be outside…away from the computer.  And then I realized, I hadn’t written the blog yet.  Shit!

As I’ve wondered over the past month how it will feel when the blog ends, today I realized it’ll feel good.  It’ll feel good to stay present in the moment…to not pull myself out of my connection with nature to sit down at a computer.  It’ll feel good…and I think I’m ready.  Maybe not to walk away forever, but to at least take a much needed break.

I’m looking forward to entire days spent AWAY from the computer…and to find news ways to waste a day away.

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Day 353: Soul contracts

soul-contractI was thinking about the post I wrote yesterday and how simply changing your thought patterns really isn’t all that easy.  It’s necessary, but not easy.  If it was easy, everyone would do it and we’d all be living lives of abundance…doing things that make our hearts sing.  Sadly, though, we aren’t.

As I was thinking this, the word “contract” popped into my head and I realized it’s something I needed to write about.  Thanks to the work with my shamans, I’ve learned how to spot them and the importance of rewriting them.

I’m not talking about your typical legal contract, exactly.  I’m talking about a soul contract that we make with ourselves…with the Universe.  They become the underlying subliminal rules…the boundaries…that govern our lives.

Have you ever said things like..

“I can’t do math.”
“I’m not good at [fill in the blank]”
“I’m not like her/him.  That comes easy to them.  I have to work at it.”
“I’d love to quit my job but I can’t.”
“S/he’d never go out with me.  I’m not [fill in the blank] enough.”

Every single one of those simple little statements bounds you to a Universal soul contract.  A contract that stipulates you can’t do…can’t be…exactly whatever it is you said/thought.

Say you can’t do math?  Correct.  You will struggle with it because the Universe wants to give you what you ask for…what you believe.  It doesn’t distinguish between positive affirmations or negative thoughts.  It’s just here to serve and support you in your quest…even if that’s a quest in “can’t”.

Think you’re not good at something.  Bingo.  You won’t be.  Even if you try it and you are good at it, you’ll probably say or think something along the lines of…that was just beginner’s luck.  Of course it was…because you couldn’t possibility be good at something…you made a contract not to be.

When you compare yourself to others do you always come up short?  Well stop believing that the other person is better than you.  You’ve made a contract stipulating you aren’t like him/her.  You aren’t as good as they are.  You’re somehow lesser.  Rubbish!

Would you love to leave your job to follow your passions or maybe find a job where your talents are valued and you’re paid more fairly?  Well, you’re going to have to stop thinking that doing so isn’t an option for you.  Ever time you think it, you halt any forward progress.

Think so-and-so wouldn’t go out with you…or that you could ever attract someone like that?  You’re correct….because you’ve made it so with your contract.

So what the hell do you do now?!?

Well, if you can’t make your way to visit some incredibly talented shamans (of which I happen to know a few), then start by listening to what you say and your thought patterns.  Notice words like “can’t”, “couldn’t”, “won’t”, “shouldn’t”, “never”, “don’t know how”, “afraid to”…and the like.  Ever time you limit your ability to do something…to try something new…with your words, you are actually limiting your ability to succeed.

Write down these statements and look at them.  There’s probably not a legitimate reason why you can’t do those things.  Why you can’t achieve your goals and dreams, other than you…yourself…have set up the barrier.

Now there’s no need to run off and get pissed at yourself.  That totally defeats the purpose.  You didn’t sign these contracts willingly.  You didn’t even realize the power of your words…until now.  Be happy that you have the power to tear up every single one of those contracts!!  You’ve been given a gift.  So make the most of it.

For each contract you identify, feel it in the body.  Package it up and decide what you want to replace it with.  Make the new contract something positive.  Something you want to achieve…a way you want to feel…to support the person you want to become.

You’ll have the full backing and support of the Universe as you establish this new, positive, life affirming soul contract.  Best of luck! 🙂

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