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Day 331: Nothing to feed on

I guess you could say my dream last night was a little disturbing.  I remember when I awoke telling myself that the dream wasn’t bad…despite the imagery.  That it simply meant I needed to live from my heart and not … Continue reading

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Day 271: Before we all become robots

Yesterday was the Winter Solstice, meaning we had the least amount of daylight of the whole year.  Personally, I’m not really a fan of the Winter Solstice except for the fact that every day following is a day with more … Continue reading

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Day 230: One leg at a time

When I was first starting out in my career I never quite felt like I fit in.  I always felt too young or too single or too trendy or too bland.  For whatever reason I carried around an insecurity that … Continue reading

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Day 213: Fear and loathing in the heartland

In a fit of insecurity, I blurted out some fears I’d been hauling around with me…and didn’t really realize.  To Mr. Universe’s credit, he handled my outburst with grace….surprising grace because he’s not always been the graceful type. After my … Continue reading

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Day 163: The best way to release the trigger is to trigger it until it’s no longer a trigger

My father was full of hate.  He raged.  He spewed harsh words that would cut to the bone leaving a wound so clean it couldn’t bleed…it was just exposed…gaping…unable to heal itself.  I lived in fear of him until I … Continue reading

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Day 159: No such thing as failure

Failure.  My shaman said it at the end our session the other day.  It’s a word that’s been floating around in my head for weeks…since I started to teach SUP, actually.  I can feel the fear of failing in the … Continue reading

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Day 144: You are God

She may annoy you with her accent or use of fowl language (both of which, I happen to like but that’s me).  She may turn you off with her depiction of organized religion, but I ask that you put your … Continue reading

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Day 96: It’s a choice

The list of lessons I’ve learned…or am learning…is long.  During a conversation with Princess Grace and Mama J, I realized the latest lesson I need to work on.  It’s a lesson that I should have learned years ago…but didn’t.  A … Continue reading

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Day 63: Careful what you ask for

After some further reflection and recent experience, I should probably add a couple of characteristics to my list of what I’m looking for in a man.  I’d like to add “a good communicator” and “someone that takes responsibility for their … Continue reading

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Day 44: Hidden from view

During my shamanic session Wednesday, I spent much of my 90 minutes talking about the blog and how writing it, talking to people about it, and knowing people are reading it makes me feel. While writing it is therapeutic, it’s … Continue reading

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